But Sometimes…

I knew that the transition to being a mum would be a shock with a lot to learn and a new routine top adjust to, but sometimes I can’t remember how I ever lived my life before Amelia arrived.

I knew that having a baby would affect my body and how it looked, that it might never be the same again, but sometimes I hate my reflection and wish I was one of those women who “bounce back”.

I know I love her with all my heart, but sometimes I wish there was a day off and that caring for her wasn’t a 24/7 job.

I knew I wanted to breastfeed, but sometimes I wonder how women do it for a long time, it was the hardest thing about being a new mum and no one ever tells you that beforehand.

I know that my maternity leave will soon be over and I will dread taking her to nursery, but sometimes I look forward to just being me.

I know that the days go by so quickly and I must cherish every moment, but sometimes it feels like bedtime will never come.

I know that when she sleeps I should do the housework, but sometimes I just want to watch trash TV and eat biscuits.

I know that I wish I had the commitment to diet, I want to lose this baby weight and more, but sometimes I want to eat everything in existence.

I knew that my home would never be spotless again, but sometimes I genuinely don’t know how a tiny person creates so much mess.

I know that our home is filled with love, laughter and toys, but sometimes I feel bad for not taking her outside to enjoy the fresh air.

I know that babies need their rest, but sometimes there are so many things to be done that it feels like we’re never at home.

I know that the last two are contradictory, but sometimes as a mother you are caught between a rock and a hard place with no one to tell you which way is correct.

I knew that weaning would be messy, but sometimes I just can’t cope with the smush.

I knew maternity leave would be spent on my own with my baby, but sometimes it is so incredibly lonely and I long for adult interaction during the day.

I knew that simple tasks like food shopping would be harder with a baby in tow, but sometimes it feels like we live in the supermarket.

I know how much I appreciate my mama squad, but sometimes I wish we could just pop round for a cuppa and a chat.

I know that I am more than just a mum, but sometimes it doesn’t feel like there is anything else in the world I would rather do than be with my family.

I knew that it would be hard for my husband to leave us every morning to go to work, but sometimes I just wish we had more than weekends together.

I know that Amelia is going to grow up into an incredible, beautiful, strong girl, but sometimes I want her to be my tiny baby forever…

Rachel xx